“I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed”…

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He’ll never understand…
And he’ll never know…

The mental pain she felt…
In simply letting him go…

The chains she unlocked…
To end all the madness…

Freeing his imperfect soul…
Removing all his sadness…

By becoming so distant…
Extracting herself from his life…

She knew it had to be done…
Despite all the strife…

Because she’d fallen too far…
And there was no return…

Leading to an ending…
That would scar and burn…

As he was not hers…
Just an impossible dream…

Which haunted her nights…
With such painful screams…

Leading to such regrets…
Each day of her life…

That he was not in it…
As she replays and rewinds…

But there was no future…
And she had to decide…

Even if it killed her…
So she hid the pain inside…

As his gentle eyes…
Turned from confusion into hate…

Not really understanding…
And now it’s far too late…

The walls are erected…
With the friendship lost…

And no stolen moment…
Was worth this huge cost…

But she had to move on…
And allow her head to drive…

It’s the only way she knows…
It’s the only way she survives…

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“I met her in the shadow”…

standing-at-the-crossroad

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She’s standing at the crossroads…
Doesn’t know which way to choose…
She feels backed into a corner…
No matter what, she’ll lose…
Does she stick or does she twist…
In this simple game of life…
Should she follow the right path…
Or keep left, dancing with the knife…

And a life filled with danger…
Where his forbidden lips call…
Up on the mountains edge…
Knowing that she may fall…
Whilst risking everything…
Ignoring all common sense…
And into his lusting arms…
In a life of such pretence…
 
Where everything feels different…
And her senses come alive…
Where electricity flows through her veins…
She needs this feeling to survive…
She craves his lips upon her…
She wants him deep inside…
She knows it’s wrong and sinful…
But without him she would die…

But she fights a constant battle…
With all her conscience voices…
On her shoulder, sat in judgement…
And mocking all her choices…
Making her feel guilty…
And underlining all her sins…
In between this rock and stone…
There is no way she can win…

Now she’s at the crossroads…
There is no right way to choose…
No escape from this dark corner…
It’s either love or lust she’ll lose…
And therein lies the twist…
In this simple game of life…
Because she simply needs both…
To feel whole, to feel alive…

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“I should have followed you home”…

It’s been far too long, but finally my beautiful guest poet Cate returns – and with a stunner!

I hope you enjoy

Cheers

J

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Another Chance

Another chance meeting
Engineered by Fate
He knows what is needed
On this memorable date

More stolen kisses
Encouraged by Destiny
She knows it will happen
Tonight just you and me

Timeless eye gazing
Allowed by Father Time
He knows sand’s falling fast
Losing space when you’re mine

Linked fingers twisting
Started by Momentum
She knows where it leads
Now the barriers are gone

Hands endlessly exploring
Given in by Permission
He knows no reason not
To allow hot skin to skin

Tongues again tasting
To satisfy deep Hunger
She knows the ache well
But the fasting is no longer

Arousing feelings grow
Fuelled by pure Lust
She knows the want’s there
Having it is a must

Close proximity excites
Driven by Temptation
He knows the real reward
Feeling the body’s true reaction

Hidden pleasurable touches
Given up by Chance
She knows to hold on
To make her connection enhance

Reaching known places
Already seen by Sight
He knows what to expect
As he enters totality tonight

Reeling from shockwaves
That’s brought by Ecstasy
She knows it’s power’s strong
Mutual need both clearly see

Decision to separate
Made by common Sense
He knows the real situation
Faithfulness is the intent

Sadness and happiness
Brought here by Reality
She knows can’t belong together
Even emotions that bring vitality

Final moments grabbed
Taken on by Desire
He knows that further kisses
Will only ignite wild fires

Embers burn forever
Fanned by a constant Love
She knows will last lifetimes
Written in the stars already taken care of

“I tried to show you just how much I care”…

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I wish I knew, what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
The truth inside your heart…

Your words so cruelly spoken…
Those cleverly constructed lies…
Roll off your tongue with ease…
Forcing tears into my eyes…

Each one a guilt laced arrow…
Embedding into my brain…
Forcing me to defend myself…
Whilst twisted up with pain…

I used to know you better…
Better than you knew yourself…
But that’s no longer true…
And I need to protect myself…

I can’t believe the difference…
Or what’s changed in you…
It’s like you are a stranger…
Not the person I once knew…

You once were soft and gentle…
So much fun to be around…
But something’s taken over…
Destroying the love we found…

Now you’re evil and vicious…
Moods swinging wild and free…
Like a volcano always erupting…
Or a killer in the midst of a spree…

I’ve tried hard to begin again…
Go back to the very start…
When our world was young…
Before we were ripped apart…

I’ve tried forgetting the past…
The damage that’s been done…
Vanquish the haunting demons…
Set a course towards the sun…

I’ve tried unlocking the chains…
That keep on holding us back…
A heavy and constant reminder…
Keeping our memories Black…

I’ve tried looking inside my soul…
For reasons to keep us close…
But the way you act around me…
I can’t destroy our ghosts…

I wish I knew, what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
It’s breaking my fragile heart…

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“Maybe the day will come, when you never have to feel no pain”…

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He stares at the sky…
On a dark starry night

A simple reminder…
Of his insignificant plight…

That he is so small…
This tiny little dot…

And in the bigger picture…
His life matters not…

Just a piece of dust…
A miniscule speck…

Wandering this planet…
His mind a total wreck…

Driven to insanity…
Within the madness of it all…

As the heights he once scaled…
Became the distance he’d fall…

His life unravelling around him…
With Karma taking its grip…

Tearing apart his reality…
Lashing him with a whip…

Dragging him into Hell…
Submerging him in darkness…

Where everything he loved…
Became tainted with a sadness…

And forced him to face…
The things he had done…

Replaying every action…
Rewinding each sinful one…

Opening up his eyes…
To all of his selfish actions…

The hurt he had caused…
By chasing cheap distractions…

And submerging himself…
In the feeling they gave…

But he wasn’t invincible…
And now he tries to save…

His soul and his mind…
From being ripped apart…

Wishing he could simply…
Just return to the start…

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Fantastic art work by Tabitha Mix over at http://tabithamixblog.wordpress.com/

“It’s something I must live with everyday”…

I am thrilled to welcome back my recent guest poet Iris, who took on the Poetry Challenge to write “his” side of the story. You can read more of her wonderful writing here: http://justme792.wordpress.com/

I hope you enjoy!

Cheers

J

Mask

It’s something I must live with everyday…

It may seem like he doesn’t care
As if he’s only doing it for fun
But she doesn’t know what’s going on
Doesn’t know how it begun

She can only see her own sorrow
She feels the bruises and the pain
But he just can’t help himself
He wishes he could start all over again

He can’t control his violent anger
He can’t deal with his twisted past
All he wants is to love and be loved
To be in a relationship that lasts

But every time it gets serious
When they both want to give it all
His past is haunting him again
Causing his thin mask to fall

He can’t help but get violent
Pressing her to go all the way
While all he wants is love and care
A place to come home to and stay

But all she sees is his anger
Without looking for a reason beneath
She can’t handle his broken world
So she packs her bags and leaves

“Talking with my brother, when the lights went out”…

neptune

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I don’t think about him…

Every single day…

Since Neptune came…

And took him away…

Filling his lungs…

In that watery grave…

It happened so fast…

With no chance to save…

A life extinguished…

In the blink of an eye…

A grieving family…

Left simply asking why…

Why was he chosen…

Out of everyone…

What was the reason…

Just what had he done…

For the beautiful mermaids…

To refuse him assistance…

And hiding their eyes…

As he fought for existence…

Only Eleven years old…

With an innocent smile…

No hint of corruption…

Just a happy child…

Who loved his life…

And all that it brought…

Yet the Gods wanted him…

No matter how we fought…

But in the midst of it all…

Trauma hit my head…

Not really understanding…

He really was dead…

But by learning to lock…

The painful memories away…

Dividing into little boxes…

To be faced, maybe one day…

Then perhaps that event…

Shaped who I really am…

A boy forever trapped…

Within the emotionless man…

Who doesn’t think about things…

In the way others do…

As it’s painful to remember…

The little boy who turned blue…

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