“I promise you the truth can’t hurt us now”…

aiafh

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She woke up feeling happy…
Sun shining through the blinds…

Last night felt so surreal…
Was this finally a sign…

That her life had new direction…
And someone she could love…

He’d come from out of nowhere…
Prayer answered from above…

She’d closed her eyes long ago…
Spoke to the gods unseen…

Begged for divine intervention…
For life to stop being mean…

And like a Black & White movie…
He seemed a real life gentleman…

Treated her like a princess…
Not like the usual cavemen…

Money was of no consequence…
He lavished such amazing gifts…

A man with taste and generosity…
It dazzled the what, buts and ifs…

She was consumed by his presence…
Swept away with such desire…

She’d never felt this way before…
Like walking upon the high wire…

Her head was light and dizzy…
And her heart skipped like a child…

He made her feel so complete…
First time in months she’d smiled…

She was the envy of her friends…
Who could never understand…

What it’s like to be in his arms…
Or to be under his command…

He navigated her spaceship…
Took her far above the stars…

Cast a magic spell on her…
And begun to heal her scars…

His words were so hypnotic…
There became nothing she wouldn’t do…

To protect this special something…
To keep him forever within her view…

Because nothing lasts forever…
And it felt too good to be true…

She knew one day he’d hurt her…
And leave her feeling so blue…

She woke up feeling happy…
Sun shining through the blinds…

Last night felt so surreal…
His body they’ll never find…

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Words originally written for Iris at https://justme792.wordpress.com/author/justme792/

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC6LQAhgy2eshClow-hZQtDQ

“He only wants to get you out of your mind”…

feelthelust-155873

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The drink in her hand…
Her back against the wall…

He pins her so robustly…
Her defences quickly fall…

Her head feels so light…
Her world begins to spin…

Her legs turn to jelly…
As she breathes him all in…

She knows it’s not right…
But doesn’t really care…

She wants him to touch her…
And undo her underwear…

Whilst taking her to places…
That she has seldom been…

Where the Devil takes over…
And fills her soul with sin…

She needs him inside her…
Right here and right now…

She lets him have control…
But wants to show him how…

How much she wants him…
And how deeply she yearns…

To let out her bad side…
Show him tricks she’s learnt…

As she’s no longer an angel …
Peeled off those goddamn wings…

Removed that fucking halo…
All the rules that it brings…

And in this sinful moment…
Without any form of regret…

She’s turned to the dark side…
And hasn’t finished yet…

As it’s a thrill she longs for…
An addiction she can’t beat…

In high heels and stockings…
Against the cold, hard concrete…

And with the drink in her hand…
She forgets for just one moment…

The nightmare of her reality…
And her ongoing inner torment…

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“And falling sounds like a lullaby”…

drdr

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She can’t outrun the darkness…
She can’t escape her past…
 
She can’t repair the damage…
Those scars will always last…
 
The flashbacks forever haunt her…
Sense of shame is all she feels…
 
And though she tries so hard…
It’s become impossible to conceal…
 
Her guilt is overwhelming…
She tries to live in constant denial…
 
The tablets will numb her senses…
But only for a very short while…
 
It’s like she’s in a dark tunnel…
Where black is all she sees…
 
With no sunlight on the horizon…
And no one around to set her free…
 
As she’s been to such dark places…
She’s seen things that horrify…
 
And temptation is getting stronger…
To escape this harrowing life…
 
She knows there’s one way out…
She knows she has a choice…
 
The only way to end this…
And finally silence the voice…
 
End the day to day trauma…
Escape her cruel prison cell…
 
Incarcerated by those memories…
Putting her through this daily hell…
 
That scream a little louder…
Every dark and lonely night…
 
She used to be much stronger…
She used to be able to fight…
 
But the years have taken their toll…
Each day has ground her down…
 
Now she never smiles anymore…
Her face carries a constant frown…
 
And the decision gets a little easier…
It becomes closer every day…
 
Just to overdose her system…
And wash this pain away…

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“When you kill the lights, and kiss my eyes”…

oohjlh

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Haunted by the memories…
And the constant flashbacks…

As those nights we shared…
Are now demonic attacks…

That stem from the guilt…
Of being laid next to you…

Pushing sexual boundaries…
Under the spell of voodoo…

The two of us together…
Committing those crimes…

It’s a permanent image…
Burned into my mind…

And those visions return…
Each and every night…

A dark fantasy world…
So wrong, it was right…

Black lace and stockings…
The blindfold and cuffs…

The push and the pull…
Your demands for it rough…

But morning would come…
And the reality hit hard…

Real life was waiting…
This was all a façade…

A distraction that led…
To a destructive addiction…

A fucking fantasy lifestyle…
That defied any description…

Where you were the one…
Who changed everything…

Provided the excitement…
Granted me the wings…

But my payment for this…
Was a mental prison cell…

Whilst the moments were sweet…
Day to day living was hell…

And yet still you remain…
Somewhere deep down inside…

Where memories we created…
Hide behind tears I can’t cry…

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“If he’s treating you, like I treated you”…

sadd

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You don’t look older…
You just look so sad…

Like the troubles you carry…
Are the worst you’ve had…

That sparkle in your eyes…
Is duller than I recall…

The glint of diamonds…
Is hardly there at all…

And I know that it’s been…
Such a very long time…

Since we were together…
And everything was fine…

In the haze of that summer…
In the midst of the madness…

You’ve clearly moved on…
Yet inherited a sadness…

That drapes over your face…
Like a thin white veil…

And sits on your shoulders…
That appear gaunt and frail…

While the smile you paint…
On your soft, pretty face…

Can’t cover up your pain…
Or even begin to chase…

Those dark demons away…
That now reside in your head…

Who have stolen your identity…
Causing tears to be shed…

And there’s nothing I can say…
There’s nothing much I can do…

To light up this darkness…
To take the burden from you…

As the distance has grown…
The dynamics have changed…

You’ve acquired a new life…
I’m cast adrift and estranged…

On the outside, looking in…
Wishing we could restart…

And turn back the clock…
To before I lost your heart…

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“I love you even more, than I did before”…

cry

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My jealousy seeps…
Through each open pour…

Knowing she’s with you…
Knowing that she saw…

Every inch of your body…
Knows the way that you taste…

The pleasure she gives you…
Is etched on your face…

And she knows that feeling…
Of having you on her arm…

Like a queen beside you…
Held under your charm…

But yet you’re not happy…
Things aren’t going so well…

This new life you’ve created…
Wasn’t worth all the hell…

The war that you waged…
Those battles we fought…

And the escape to freedom…
You so desperately sought…

Craving your independence…
Wanting to be all alone…

Needing your space…
Our relationship outgrown…

It was never your fault…
Always twisted around…

And your finger of blame…
Made a deafening sound…

Making it so clear…
That you wanted out…

Despite all the protests…
My pleas, my shouts…

And now you sit there…
Lamenting your new life…

It isn’t much better…
You didn’t find paradise…

Yet my jealousy rages…
My anger burns so bright…

But I still can’t hate you…
Just want to hold you so tight…

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“Into that void of silence”…

gkar

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Driving with anger…
Fire in his eyes…

Along darkened roads…
The speeding car flies…

Adrenaline is pumping…
The music is loud…

No traffic in sight…
Far from the crowds…

Taking each corner…
At maximum speed…

Replaying the visions…
Of her dark sinful deed…

She was laid on the bed…
Entwined with another…

Loud orgasmic sounds…
The pillow couldn’t cover…

And he just stood there…
Watched from the door…

He was frozen in horror…
Till he couldn’t take anymore…

Then fleeing the house…
Both hurt and betrayed…

Not really understanding…
Why she had strayed…

His one true love…
He felt such a fool…

Why would she do it…
How could she be so cruel…

The voices kept taunting…
From deep within his mind…

Question after question…
Yet no answers could he find…

So he made the decision…
To get the cold facts…

Decided to head home…
Begin his counter attack…

But as the rain started falling…
He misjudged a sharp bend…

And in one fleeting moment…
The voices came to an end…

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