“The city’s asleep, but my mind keeps running astray”…

Please welcome back Nathan as tonight’s guest poet. You can read more of his work here:

https://randompoemswithnohome.wordpress.com/2015/07/02/filling-the-late-hours/

If you want to grab a guest poet slot, please email your words to eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk

Cheers

nath

“Filling the late hours”

In hopeless abandon
helpless to be fuelled
by my own heartless skin.

The sun is a nourishing enemy
as time quickens distance
the shadows run deep
emptying memories like
the work of an angered God.

I’ve given up inside
hovering above tumbling
notes of tiny astray sand
deep within the desert womb.

Your vibrations beckon
from the next room over
and I think I’m stabbed yours.

The years are quick…
…the ache is quicker…
the light underground
never seems to heal.

This longing grazes love
through curtains curtailed
by the skipping weight
of years where the truth
seems buried beneath light
or something so resonant
arching sideways and blossoming
with an angered anguished moon.

“I’ve looked at life, from both sides now”…

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She’s been to dark places…
Where the sun never shines…

And the sky is covered over…
By the blackness in her mind…

She’s enjoyed evil thoughts…
Matched by her actions…

She’s hurt those around…
Whilst seeking some distraction…

She’s a version of another…
The person no one else sees…

Like a stealthy secret agent…
A double life she leads…

Taking risks with her life…
Gently loving, yet deceiving…

In the search of something…
To keep her believing…

That there is more to life…
That a truth will be found…

To assist her find the peace…
So she can sleep sound…

And switch off the visions…
That race through her head…

And mute all the voices…
Wishing she’d not said…

Words of bitter cruelty…
The words of pure hate…

Words she can’t take back…
And that didn’t translate…

Into how she’s feeling…
Because she can’t articulate…

The pain that surrounds her…
She fears it’s much too late…

To resolve this situation…
Or ever reclaim her soul…

That’s inked with her crimes…
Now out of all control…

As she sits in dark places…
Where the sun never shines…

And the sky is covered over…
By the black clouds in her mind…

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“She was, an American girl”…

Wishing all my American readers a very Happy Fourth of July…

em

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The electrical storm…
Raged high overhead…

Deep in the night…
As she lay in her bed…

Piercing the darkness…
Lighting up the sky…

Like a firework display…
On the Fourth of July…

Her dreams in tatters…
Something had died…

There was nothing left…
Behind tear-stained eyes…

Just a wall of silence…
And a vast black void…

A haunting reminder…
Of what she destroyed…

As her venomous tongue…
Fired arrows, sharp & twisted…

She lost all control…
But as the red mist lifted…

She realised the hurt…
And saw all his wounds…

But was unable to recover…
Knew they were doomed…

Destroying any trust…
That had once flourished…

Broke his kind heart…
That she once cherished…

And pushed him away…
Built so many walls…

Till he finally craved solitude…
Time away from it all…

As he’d forgiven so much…
So many of her mistakes…

But this time was different…
And he had to escape…

So he left in the rain…
Running far, far away…

Leaving her broken…
Filled with regret & dismay…

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“I’ll never find anyone to replace you”…

remember

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They remember the time…
It was fresh, it was new…

When it was their secret…
And only they knew…

Remembering the feelings…
Those trembling words…

And subliminal messages…
That only they heard…

Remembering the moments…
Stolen from each other…

And the conversations…
That ended in the gutter…

Remembering the chills…
When their eyes first met…

The flash of electricity…
Moments they’ll never forget…

Remembering the kiss…
That sparked it all…

A single strike of lightning…
That became a fireball…

Remembering that night…
When everything twisted…

Reality became fantasy…
As inhibition was lifted…

Remembering the aftermath…
The confusion that followed…

A host of mixed messages…
And bitter pills swallowed…

Remembering those words…
Cutting like a knife…

Destroying each memory…
Made deep in the night…

Remembering the hurt…
All the tears and the pain…

That drove a wedge between…
And vowed never again…

Remembering the bond…
Lost with a roll of the dice…

And those starlight lovers…
Who paid the ultimate price

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“Every single one of us, the Devil inside”…

Please welcome Clive as tonight’s Guest Poet – You can read more of his work here:

https://thistwistedyouth.wordpress.com/

If you would like to be featured as a Guest Poet, please email your words to eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk

Cheers

clive

A thorough disgrace
Thought the ministers daughter
As she lit up her crack pipe
And slipped down the alter
The new life inside her
Unaware her sub-missions
Now mimics her mum
Curled in foetal positions
Suffocating and spinning
From toxins and Aids
Her parents screamed evil
Whilst she cried afraid
Left mute by rejection
The confusion, the pain
As they ran from the answers
That let the questions remain
Like her naive prayers for help
To understand dreams of blame
That still grow in her heart
And darken her name
The earrings, the nose stud
She knew it would rile them
The make-up, the hair
She continued to test them
The boyfriends, the blasphemy
The late nights thrown at them
Her reasons like whispers
Gone. drowned in a swan song
The river on fire
Her food turned to sand
Says nothing of love
And the ironic twists
Of supply and demand
That made her ungrateful
When they did not understand
A way to respect her
Induce or entice
Her thoughts through to balance
On life’s tight rope of ice
So she crashed and froze
To the stone cold church floor
Where she lies hopeless with hurt
Cracked open for more
To dull all her senses
And quench all the shame
To blot out her past
Re-christen her name
For she cracked her head
To misfire on split levels
She both hides from the truth
And slow dances with devils
Her parents so righteous
Simply just chose the former
And shifted the blame
For they could not reform her
They distorted the problems
And helped made her feel cursed
As they dreamed of the best
And yet dragged out the worst
For in fighting fake devils
They disowned her true lies
“Shut up, & damned,”
Like the people of Dedon
Severed clean from Gods hands
And so with these People
My thoughts will remain
Until people know clearly
Confusion breeds pain.

“I figure I’ll be damned, all alone like I began”…

jud

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My time will come,
that much is true…

And I will be judged,
but not by you…

As all my sins,
will be uncovered…

And all my lies,
will be discovered…

And any punishment,
will be handed down…

By a higher force,
wearing a thorny crown…

Not by someone,
with their own agenda…

Whose views on life,
are narrow and slender…

Someone who really,
has never lived at all…

Only sits in judgement,
watching others fall…

Getting pleasure from,
everyone else’s failure…

On the moral high ground,
becoming such a hater…

But your arrows are blunt,
they can no longer hurt me…

I know my failures,
I’m the one who sees…

The bigger picture and
the unedited version…

My whole life experience,
each and every diversion…

Away from the path,
that’s straight and true…

Straying into the shadows,
hiding out of view…

But that’s my problem and
none of your concern…

Worry about yourself and
just leave me to burn…

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“Our heartbeats becoming slow”…

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The big city boy and
the small town girl…

Lust filled the senses,
as the whirlwind whirled…

Under star filled skies,
it was laced with mystery…

Playing in the darkness,
fulfilling fantasies…

Revealing to each other,
dark forbidden secrets…

Trying not to contemplate,
any morning after regrets…

That would surely follow,
in the cold light of day…

But until that moment,
in each other’s arms they lay…

Making a commitment,
to end it all together…

A simple suicide pact,
that would last forever…

And when the time came,
they would find a place…

To lay with each other and
hold each other’s gaze…

Leave behind the madness,
begin a new journey…

Which would be eternal,
one that would see…

Them together forever,
floating amongst the stars…

As light as a feather,
no baggage and no scars…

Just two souls colliding,
a pair of hearts in love…

Refusing to be chained,
finding freedom high above…

But until that sweet moment,
no one can ever know…

As this love is forbidden,
it belongs in the shadows…

~

Amazing art by NoteS28