Black Hole…

~

The man at the door…
Wants to buy your soul…

Says it’s worth double…
As it’s got a Black Hole…

Got a big Black Hole…
Deep down inside…

Been getting bigger…
Every time you lied…

Each time you lied…
The man here knew…

Made him smile…
As the Black Hole grew…

Growing bigger and bigger…
Swallowing up your heart…

Covering up the truth…
Shooting out a poison dart…

And that poison dart…
Hit the one you love…

Made him take flight…
Like an escaping Dove…

That escaping Dove…
Has broken your soul…

Now all that’s left…
Is this big Black Hole…

It’s your Black Hole…
That this man wants…

Killing time in the shadows…
As his memory haunts…

And that memory haunts…
Stalks your hurting head…

You made the choices…
Now you wish you were dead…

You wish you were dead…
Because the living is hell…

Now the time has come…
And your ready to sell…

Yes you’re ready to sell…
Detach that big Black Hole…

So just close your eyes…
And hand over your soul…

~

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song : ”Black” by Pearl Jam

Victory…

~

At the end of a tunnel…
Scrambling into moonlight…

Somehow I’m still standing…
After such a bitter fight…

Not sure how I got here…
Can’t explain what I’ve done…

As the battles I’ve experienced…
All seem to blur into one…

And I don’t feel very special…
I’m not feeling worldly wise…

Despite what I’ve witnessed…
Through these aging eyes…

As I look at the night sky…
And search through the clouds…

Gazing into a star filled void…
Past the Moon’s regal shroud…

Made to feel so insignificant…
Left feeling so very small…

I’m just tiny speck of dust…
In the grand scheme of it all…

Carrying the weight of my history…
But always hiding from my past…

Where decisions I have taken…
Became scars that will last…

Assimilated on this journey…
Like chapters of a book…

Sometimes they felt prewritten…
Other times just downright luck…

Where nobody really understood…
Yet felt they had the right…

To tell me how I should feel…
Never understanding my plight…

And by trying to protect myself…
From those inflicting cruelty…

The mental war grew darker…
As demons just surrounded me…

Trying to drown me as I swam…
Against the vicious and cold tide…

Now they tell me this is victory…
But inside my soul has died…

~

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “Present Tense” by Pearl Jam

Dead Man…

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He is waking up to…
A blood red sky…

He knows full well…
It’s the day he will die…

His last day on Earth…
And all that will bring…

Gazing out of a window…
His tears begin to sting…

A moment that’s been coming…
Since the verdict was heard…

The judge and the jury…
Unmoved and undeterred…

His defence well-constructed…
But crumbled under attack…

Those lies in his statements…
Stood out from the pack…

And the blood on his hands…
Became clear for all to see…

The thorough prosecution…
Unravelled the dark mystery…

Leaving him to face…
This last day all alone…

In a cage that is empty…
Which became his home…

Reliving the very moment…
That he stole her life…

A struggle in the darkness…
The flash of his sharp knife…

The sound that she made…
When she fell to the floor…

His feelings of elation…
His thirst hungry for more…

That surge of immortality…
Became the thrill of the chase…

Yet in the midst of over confidence…
The mask slipped from his face…

Now this day is upon him…
The sands of time have run out…

He no longer feels immortal…
He feels only fear and doubt…

~

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “Dead Man Walking” by Pearl Jam

Pull Me…

Please welcome Chris as tonight’s Guest Poet!

You can read more of Chris’s work here: https://survivingthespecter.wordpress.com/2015/11/23/pull-me-poetry/

If you would like to become a Guest Poet, please email me your words to eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk

Cheers

Pull Me

I had a little trigger that pushed me all the way
To hang myself upon my door, I couldn’t make it go away
I knocked it down with sleeping pills, and tucked it in with rum
The Spectre slashed his razor claws, the round had slipped into the gun

I had a little trigger that pulled itself real tight
I slipped the belt around my neck, I lost the will to fight
I cut it off with leather cinched, this time would be the last
I’d ever have to take again, the demons from my past

I had a little trigger, it jabbed me in my throat
To end the crap that smeared itself, across the lies it wrote
The failures, loss, resentment, of a thousand dreaded days
To suck out all the happiness, replaced it with the grey that stays

The trigger pulled, the hammer fell
The firing pin that sealed my hell
Waiting while the light fades out
Extinguishing without a shout

“You are who, who you are”…

~

Accept your hands are tied…

Accept this is your fate…

Accept that this is it…

Accept that it’s too late…

Accept it’s who you are…

Accept this is your life…

Accept the good, accept the bad…

Accept the double edged knife…

Accept the crazy situations…

Accept whatever comes along…

Accept life’s song is out of tune…

Accept that you’re so very wrong…

Accept you make mistakes…

Accept you’re far from perfect…

Accept no good will come of this…

Accept it will end in regret…

Accept there is no escape…

Accept you’re not in control…

Accept this is a problem…

Accept you’ve sold your soul…

Accept life’s one long story…

Accept it’s no fairy tale…

Accept the twists, accept the turns…

Accept you’ll sometimes fail…

Accept those who need you…

Accept they’re fucked up too…

Accept their stories never add up…

Accept that nothings really true…

*

Deny the truth to others…

Deny whatever they may say…

Deny all those accusations…

Deny them till your dying day…

~

 

“I figure I’ll be damned, all alone like I began”…

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My time will come,
that much is true…

And I will be judged,
but not by you…

As all my sins,
will be uncovered…

And all my lies,
will be discovered…

And any punishment,
will be handed down…

By a higher force,
wearing a thorny crown…

Not by someone,
with their own agenda…

Whose views on life,
are narrow and slender…

Someone who really,
has never lived at all…

Only sits in judgement,
watching others fall…

Getting pleasure from,
everyone else’s failure…

On the moral high ground,
becoming such a hater…

But your arrows are blunt,
they can no longer hurt me…

I know my failures,
I’m the one who sees…

The bigger picture and
the unedited version…

My whole life experience,
each and every diversion…

Away from the path,
that’s straight and true…

Straying into the shadows,
hiding out of view…

But that’s my problem and
none of your concern…

Worry about yourself and
just leave me to burn…

~

“I’ve lost before, you know I can’t forget”…

Please welcome James as my latest guest poet – you can follow James on Twitter here:

@jamesleachpoet

Enjoy!

Cheers
J

Defeat (16)

I don’t know where, I don’t know why,
I guessed it must have passed me by.
I realise now what I have lost.
I never knew what it would cost.

They say the past is history,
And that’s the same for you and me.
Today’s a gift it’s my present,
to share with you this sentiment.

The futures vague like a mystery,
We’ll never know what we could be.
You left me, broken, cold, alone,
I miss you laughing I miss you moan.

Be it through woe or ecstasy,
your voice will always comfort me.
I know that things will never change,
I only have myself to blame.

I should have seen divides ahead
But I saw ignorance instead.
I should have seen it on your face.
You should still be with me today.

How I feel now is terrible,
was up so high, so far to fall.
When you’re in love it’s total bliss,
being with you I sorely miss.

The good, the bad, all that we shared,
I tried to show how much I cared.
I guess for you it’s not enough,
which means for me that luck is tough.

You’ll always be the one for me,
But without you we cannot be.
So I will ponder head facing feet
and try to cope with this defeat

“All the innocence lost at one time”…

~

She lived her life…
Without living at all…

Her senses numbed…
Always fearing the fall…

With no electricity…
And without excitement…

Walking on the safe side…
Of life’s hard pavement…

Until one day…
A switch was flicked…

Deep inside her head…
She became bewitched…

By the simple notion…
Time was running out…

She began to scream…
And began to shout…

Rebelling against…
All that she knew…

All that she’d learned…
All she had held true…

And took to the water…
Infested by sharks…

Where the Devil resides…
Firing his poisoned darts…

As she sleepwalked the day…
Only awakening at night…

Where the cover of darkness…
Blocked out the light…

Her morals blinded by…
A new found treasure…

Disguising the things…
Bringing new found pleasure…

That left her thirsting…
And lusting for more…

Now this was “living”…
Of that she was sure…

Now she lives life…
Never fearing the fall…

Her senses alive…
Not caring at all…

~

“She lies and says she’s in love with him”…

~

She can’t keep opening her veins…
Just for your entertainment…

She’s not a puppet on a string…
To be left out on the pavement…

She can’t keep on playing…
All your stupid fucking games…

Listening to you calling her…
By a hundred different names…

She’s worn out by your insensitivity…
And sick of your disregard…

For the fact she bruises so easily…
Each time she lets down her guard…

You simply take her for granted…
And treat her like such a fool…

You never give her any credit…
It’s like she’s back at school…

She’s not sure she can take this…
And not sure she can carry on…

You’ve ripped the heart from her…
Without caring what you’ve done…

Because you’re so wrapped up…
In your quest for domination…

Walking over other people…
And crushing any inspiration…

Sucking up helpless souls…
Before casually spitting them out…

Not hearing their pleas…
Ignoring their desperate shouts…

And treating those close to you…
With such utter contempt…

That it becomes impossible…
To make any realistic attempt…

In keeping up the pretence…
At hiding her hatred and distain…

Because all it is doing…
Is causing her anguish and pain…

As you’ve had the best of her…
She’s been your entertainment…

So now it’s time for her to leave…
And free her heart from this torment…

~

“I’m in the fire, but I’m still cold”…

~

In a blood Red room…

The little man danced…

All was now ready…

Nothing was left to chance…

As the giant warned…

It was happening again…

And the White haired man…

Was becoming insane…

As he looked into a mirror…

That reflected back the beast…

A demon’s eyes staring…

With it’s powers increased…

Such a force of pure evil…

Walking with the fire…

It infected this weak soul…

Driving a murderous desire…

That was forged in the forest…

Whilst flying with the Owls…

Stood wild and naked…

As the lone wolf howled…

Now possessed by this spirit…

He dances with the girl…

His next helpless victim…

He’ll soon remove her soul…

And dispose of the body…

In such a calculated way…

So nobody would suspect him…

Or the Devil they must slay…

But careless clues are given…

In dreams that keep on coming…

Each one revealing something…

And a song the beast is humming…

Will soon be his undoing…

And it’s true identity revealed…

Whilst letters under fingernails…

Will finally begin to yield…

The answers they are looking for…

In the dramatic final act…

When the demon is exorcized…

And this case is finally cracked…

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